March 13, 2021


Wow, where to begin? It's been 2.5 years since I've last uploaded a post for The Love Series. I've been so caught up with other aspects of my life that I forgot how much I enjoy writing. I wouldn't want to promise that I'm back for good, but I'm here to pen my thoughts on saying "Yes".

Today's chapter seems like it's the last chapter because of the title, but it's only the beginning. I said "I do" to my best friend, the love of my life, my soulmate just 14 days ago, and I'm still in Cloud 9. Dan and I had a little intimate solemnisation with our family and closest friends, and it was such a magical evening. I will be sharing how Dan and I both felt leading up to the moment we said Yes to forever.

To be really honest with you, I thought calmness was all I would feel for the evening, but boy was I wrong, I was a total nervous wreck. I had multiple dreams of things going wrong 2 weeks before our solemnisation, and I kept waking up feeling so worried. I spoke to Dan about how I was feeling, and he assured me that everything was going to be okay. I was so glad that I had the opportunity to work with such amazing partners for the solemnisation, and that factor itself was a huge relief for me. It was the day of the solemnisation and my heart kept racing all afternoon. I tried distracting myself, but to no avail.

It was down to an hour before our guests arrived, and I still felt like my heart was going to pound out of my chest. I kept replaying my vows to Dan over and over in my head while my make-up artist was getting my hair done. Dan kept tearing up when he looked at me, and that made me extra emotional too. 

Our loved ones arrived, and my Dad and I left via the backdoor while Dan greeted all of them into our venue. We walked over to the boardwalk where I was going to march-in from, and it was that moment where it hit me. I felt so overwhelmed with emotions and tears started streaming down my freshly made up face. I tried to hold it in, I whispered my vows under my breath but that somehow made me even more emotional. I just stood there crying while trying to compose myself by taking deep breaths. It worked. Our coordinator told us it was time to get ready for the march-in. The music slowly faded away, and it was silent for a few seconds before our march-in song echoed in the air. It was just minutes away from the moment I say "I do". My Dad and I walked down the boardwalk into the venue, and we were greeted with all the excited expressions of our loved ones. Dan waited down the aisle and even at that moment, I still couldn't believe I was marrying the love of my life. 

After many customary "Yes, I will"s and "Yes, I do"s, it was time for Dan to read out his speech for me. He reached for the crumpled paper that was tucked in the front pocket of his vest, and he read out the page that he wrote. Dan's lips will always turn pale when he is nervous, and I tried consoling him with my eyes that he was doing well. I managed to hold my tears in while he read his vows line by line, and I felt like I was falling in love with him all over again while he recalled our adventures from when we were 18. It was my turn to read my vows for him, and my throat was so dry because I was still so nervous. I took my time, and surprised myself when I managed to read out my vows without a script. After reading both our vows out to each other, I was filled with pure joy and happiness. My hands were shaking when Dan placed the ring on my finger. 

Who knew that I would still be so nervous even after spending every waking moment with Dan. Don't get me wrong, it was a good kind of nervous. A feeling that felt right. I guess what we are trying to say is, we came this far because we never once gave up on each other. We went through every hurdle together, we faced each other's darkest moments and continued to work on our relationship every day. There was never a night in the past 9 years where we ever slept on a problem. We'll stay up till however late to talk things out. Even today, I look at Dan and I feel nothing but love and happiness to see my best friend and my future. That's the beauty of love.

So here's us, closing today's chapter as a married couple! 


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